Growing Pains

Student Teaching. I never want to be a 'student teacher' again. BUT, I would never, ever, trade my student teaching experience for anything. I have learned more about myself, my faith, the 'real world,' and life in the past ten weeks than ever before. Throughout my student teaching I have been challenged, discouraged, sad, angry, encouraged, and confused. I am going to miss my students. My college classes did not prepare me for the emotion roller coster of teaching. It is amazing that in just ten weeks I have made such meaningful relationships with many of my students. I feel like I am at the tipping point, that if I were to continue teaching I just might 'get it.' You know what 'it' is. 'It' is that special unknown quality that makes you not only an effective teacher but also a GOOD teacher. And in high school, the title of 'good' is just about as high on the ranking scale you can get. I am really going to miss my students. It is strange I care for these students so much when I've only know them such a short time.

TRANSITION

My life is in a transition time. And it's strange. I am graduating in two weeks. Moving away from Purdue, the home I have known for the past four years, and moving on to a new adventure. I am learning what it means to be a wife, and aspiring to be a Godly wife. I will be moving cross country with my husband at the end of the summer. Oh, and I have NO IDEA what I would like to 'do' with my life. Well, that's not entirely true, I constantly am striving to be a servant of the Lord. I want him to use my life for his purpose, for his plans. I just wish I knew what those plans were. I have no idea where I will be or what I will be doing over the next year (not to mention I'll be further than a 45 minute drive from my family for the first time EVER) I am putting my hopes and dreams in the Lord. I pray he will continue to shape and mold my character into a young woman he can use for his kingdom. I long to serve, I just do not know what that looks like yet beyond serving in the 'everyday' areas of my life. For now, it is enough. Maybe I can serve my husband tonight by baking him cookies! :) And my doing the laundry, oh and the dishes that I have been putting off for almost a week now. Yep, it's that bad.

Feels wonderful to ramble about life and my many insecurities about the future.